October 26th 2020, Jesus asked this question.
“Can you give up your bunny for me?”
It was such an unexpected question, and I made my weakest yes possible. I said yes because I knew I was supposed to, but I really wanted to say “Please have mercy on me”. From that moment, I was living with fear of losing my bunny. My bunny has been my biggest comfort and I’ve been living with him for 10 years. It sounded too tragic for me to have to be separated from him. I was unable to understand why Jesus was asking for this. But I never knew this goodbye was actually planned upon my request.
In early April 2021, my husband and I came to a conclusion that we should drop everything off to follow wherever Jesus leads us. So I sold/gave away/threw away everything in my house during April.
On April 25th, after much postponement and hesitation I took my bunny to my sister who will take care of my bunny. I put my bunny in a newly set fence in my sister’s home, and I slept at her for one night. It was my final night with my bunny, so I couldn’t sleep at all.
So it was past midnight, around 12:30am of April 26th. Then a memory from a year before popped up.
A year before, April 26th 2020, after watching and being inspired by Heidi Baker, my husband and I made a decision. Under a magnolia tree in front of our house, we prayed that we would lay down everything to follow Jesus. I remember that we both shed tears. In my case I was scared because I didn’t know what “everything” includes. Then, I forgot what I prayed.
And exactly a year later, April 26, 2021, when I finally dropped off my bunny, Jesus reminded me of the day I prayed this prayer. So it seems dropping off my bunny was the final step or a form of confirmation in “laying down everything”. And it was predicated upon my prayer.
Jesus was kind enough to give me a notice on October 26th which was six month before my bunny and I were to be separated. He also gave me the final three months to be exclusively with my bunny, because my husband left for the US three and half months before I left.
“Come follow me and I will transform you into fishers of men instead of fish!”
Immediately they dropped their nets and left everything behind to follow Jesus.
It seems they became apostles because they left everything “immediately” and I guess “completely”.
I’m still in shock of what happened to me. I watch my bunny video from time to time and become sad. But I found myself getting better and fine. I didn’t lose anything because my bunny will be kept forever in Jesus.
So I finalize this one year timeline.
Apr. 26th 2020 Praying “We will lay down everything for Jesus”
Oct.26th. 2020 “Can you give up your bunny for me?”
Jan. 24- Apr. 25. 2021 Being exclusively with my bunny for three months.
Apr. 26th 2021 Last day with my bunny.
A Prayer for listeners
Father, I pray for who listened to this story.
You gave me a bunny, and I had so much joy with my bunny for 10 years.
I am so thankful for your gift, cute bunny, and the time we spent together.
Now you took my bunny back for your bigger plan. But I know that my bunny is kept in you forever.
In the bible Mark chapter 10 verse 29 and 30, it says,
“Listen to my words,” Jesus said. “Anyone who leaves his home behind and chooses me over children, parents, family, and possessions, all for the sake of the gospel, it will come back to him a hundred times as much in this lifetime—homes, family, mothers, brothers, sisters, children, possessions—along with persecutions. And in the age to come, he will inherit eternal life.
So, I believe the reward is great.
I pray for the listeners. Please help them to choose you Jesus, over anything or anybody in the world. Open their heart, and give them a faith. A faith that you are a good God and never take anything from you.
We lay down everything for your kingdom. Use us for your kingdom. Give us courage to say “Yes” to you. Help us to follow you. Let us all become fearless lovers of Jesus. We say yes to you Lord, because You are worthy of it all.
I pray in Jesus name. Amen.